Read this last week, reading it again today, because I couldn’t get over it. Still has the same effect on me. Had me crying all over again. Huhuhu. So good, I can’t wait for the next book to come out. This tearjerker gave me a new hope, faith and belief in love and life.
I want to get lost, be found and fall in love in Paris too. ?
Crisp plus hazetnut dip while in search for Mr. Flood’s location. Yes, this is going to be a good night. 💕📖👍😊
The things we do for love. ♥
Hi, Baby! :)
Making something like this isn’t really arduous for me, since I’ve quite made a lot of senseless blabbing here, not to make it too obvious, specifically for you. But to write something about you that is bare, filled with honesty, with all my heart’s might… that’s giving me the hard time. In a good way, of course. I think words will never be enough to comprehend every single emotion I have for you, given the fact that I had such mostly sublime (or insert any term you want to use that is synonymous to wonderful) almost four years with you. You’re a great guy. I’m pretty certain you get that a lot. Everyone likes you… and I know people question (all the time) why we are together, or at least why you chose me. The impatient, stubborn, self-centered brat. I do wonder as well. But then, you’re the only one who has all the answers to this never-ending parade of questions regarding your feelings for me. And I should just continue to be grateful that you never stop loving me when you actually have all the reasons to do so. I’m a very lucky girl to have you. Well, enough about me. Take time to read, this is going to be a very long word-vomit. I’m pouring all the love I have for you here.
The usual question would always be: “What do you love about James?” On an ordinary day, to narrow it down, I would say “everything”… but since the main reason why I am raping the keyboard right now and letting words flow freely out of my head, is to flesh out what I meant when I say I love everything about you. Well it may sound easy, but it’s nowhere near that. This is when I actually let my heart provide the right words and construct every sentence accurately. Because at times like this, I write how I feel, not what I feel… and those are instances that the heart knows better. My mind’s job right now is to play the role of the supportive friend, lending all the help that is needed. So, let me start by saying “everything” includes that very moment I met you. You’ve done a very great job on playing both roles of the best friend and the boyfriend since day one.
What caught my attention the first time I saw you was your eyes. The way they seem perfect with your smile is what I really find attractive, you’re such a delight in my sight whenever you greet me with that sweet smile of yours. And as time passed, I eventually had more reasons to love those expressive eyes. How they look straight into mine making every “I love you” that comes out of your mouth truthful enough to make my heart skip a beat. How they cry out sincerity whenever you apologize for each mistake that you’ve done, or for every wrong thing that causes my heart to break. How they are so transparent, letting me see through your joy and sadness. And most of all, how they gaze at me, full of love, setting aside all my imperfections. You’ve pointed out a lot of times that you will always love me through ups and downs and beyond my flaws. And yes, I do believe that, for I have never met any other guy who can be such a very clingy boyfriend as you are. It annoys me sometimes, but at least I know how much you can’t stand not being with me. That you’d rather spend a Saturday night listening to my rants or eating every food we can find, cuddle and watch even the lamest movie with me, than to be out with your friends drinking, spicing up the bromance or whatever else guys do together. You always exert an extra effort on reaching out to my family and friends, and I admire you for that. You’re more than willing to know every single person in my life. The fact that you have come to love those people that I love… that makes me fall for you even more.
Maybe it will be an overstatement if I claim that you are probably every girl’s dream guy… but seriously, you being a complete surprise freak who is never ashamed to do acts of sweetness for his girl, who wouldn’t want to be your girlfriend? Be it small or enormous, be it lousy or wondrous… you’re so good at making a girl feel like a pampered princess, my heart melts with absolute happiness all the time. A balloon on a random day. Flowers to win over my forgiveness. A special delivery of whatever food to satisfy my craving. A book I’m dying to read for the past 24 hours. Or a very early morning slash late night visit just because you miss me. These are the things that I will definitely never get tired of. I am probably not the prettiest girl, but with you beside me, it doesn’t really matter. You make me feel lovely inside and out… even beyond that. You’re like my personal Romeo (Romeo and Juliet), Eros (Cupid and Psyche), Landon (A Walk to Remember), Noah (The Notebook), Leo (The Vow), Tan Zhie Jie (To Forget You), Chuck (Gossip Girl), Dor (The Timekeeper)… and all the other fictional male characters that I admire, combined all together. A decent, sensible, romantic guy who isn’t afraid to give all the love he can without even thinking of what he will get in return. It’s just so overwhelming to know that whatever makes me happy, even the most doltish thing, makes you happy. It’s fascinating how you’ve tried your best to learn every single detail about me. Reading me always like I’m your favorite book, studying word for word, re-reading, memorizing and loving every page. You’ve always been my number one fan, my consistent cheerleader, my happy pill, my hero, the constant of my life and all that there is for me to want and need. My favorite company through good times and bad.
I wouldn’t come close to denying that our relationship isn’t perfect… yet that makes this whole thing ideal. I don’t feel the need to impress anyone or worry about how people around us see our relationship and what they think about it. It has always been real… too real if you may ask. Arguing most of the time and infuriated with each other’s annoying little ways, hating each other for the shallowest reason there is. We can be happy doing nothing the whole day. Sitting on our couch, contented on talking to each other about the silliest things in life. Or in some days (if we preferred a quiet afternoon rest): I, too caught up in a book I’m reading… you, wandering in your dreams, sleeping in my lap. This has always been the way our relationship goes. No need for an everyday lunch dates/dinners at fancy restaurants, or expensive gifts that cost almost a month of our allowances combined. We see joy in the simplest thing. An ice cream tub shared, and all the stories we never get tired of telling each other… these are the things that made our relationship special. And it may not be cloud nine most of the time, but I am proud of the fact that we always figure out a way to patch things up and settle all the misunderstandings that we’re going through, ironing all the wrinkles our relationship holds and walking hand in hand through the rough road. What we have may not be perfect… but I know that this is worth having. A relationship that will continue to blossom in the coming years.
I love you, Baby. I may love you a little less sometimes, but I never did once stop loving you. It’s quite proven that a string will always pull me back to you… it’s like a part of me is missing if I don’t have you. I know we can’t still tell if we are each other’s happy ending… but I have faith on us. Every day is a fight for another day we can share, let’s keep on striving for forever. I am looking forward for more long hugs, kissing while laughing, late night phone calls talking about the pandas or the koalas, or even the munchkins of Oz. More good morning and good night messages, thousands of ‘I love yous’ and ‘I love you toos’ that we will never get tired of voicing out. More bookstore-hopping or wandering at thrift shops. Let’s keep dancing on our song, let’s keep singing our hearts out with all the nursery rhymes we know. Let’s stay this way, the happy couple that we have always been. We’ll keep on writing our love story. We’ll keep on being Popeye and Olive, June and Johnny, Mickey and Minnie, Salt and Pepper (It’s so obvious who Pepper is. Haha!), Spongebob and Patrick, Finn and Jake, Pucca and Garu, Pooh and Piglet… FOREVER BEE AND BOO, never one without the other. More than lovers, we are best friends. A private team discovering everything about life together.
Thank you… there will never be enough words to say how blessed I feel right now. I will be forever thankful to God for letting our paths meet. Let’s create more memories. Fingers crossed, we’ll be anchored for the rest of our lives. :)
Hugs and Kisses, Louise.♥
