Making something like this isn’t really arduous for me, since I’ve quite made a lot of senseless blabbing here, not to make it too obvious, specifically for you. But to write something about you that is bare, filled with honesty, with all my heart’s might… that’s giving me the hard time. In a good way, of course. I think words will never be enough to comprehend every single emotion I have for you, given the fact that I had such mostly sublime (or insert any term you want to use that is synonymous to wonderful) almost four years with you. You’re a great guy. I’m pretty certain you get that a lot. Everyone likes you… and I know people question (all the time) why we are together, or at least why you chose me. The impatient, stubborn, self-centered brat. I do wonder as well. But then, you’re the only one who has all the answers to this never-ending parade of questions regarding your feelings for me. And I should just continue to be grateful that you never stop loving me when you actually have all the reasons to do so. I’m a very lucky girl to have you. Well, enough about me. Take time to read, this is going to be a very long word-vomit. I’m pouring all the love I have for you here.
The usual question would always be: “What do you love about James?” On an ordinary day, to narrow it down, I would say “everything”… but since the main reason why I am raping the keyboard right now and letting words flow freely out of my head, is to flesh out what I meant when I say I love everything about you. Well it may sound easy, but it’s nowhere near that. This is when I actually let my heart provide the right words and construct every sentence accurately. Because at times like this, I write how I feel, not what I feel… and those are instances that the heart knows better. My mind’s job right now is to play the role of the supportive friend, lending all the help that is needed. So, let me start by saying “everything” includes that very moment I met you. You’ve done a very great job on playing both roles of the best friend and the boyfriend since day one.
What caught my attention the first time I saw you was your eyes. The way they seem perfect with your smile is what I really find attractive, you’re such a delight in my sight whenever you greet me with that sweet smile of yours. And as time passed, I eventually had more reasons to love those expressive eyes. How they look straight into mine making every “I love you” that comes out of your mouth truthful enough to make my heart skip a beat. How they cry out sincerity whenever you apologize for each mistake that you’ve done, or for every wrong thing that causes my heart to break. How they are so transparent, letting me see through your joy and sadness. And most of all, how they gaze at me, full of love, setting aside all my imperfections. You’ve pointed out a lot of times that you will always love me through ups and downs and beyond my flaws. And yes, I do believe that, for I have never met any other guy who can be such a very clingy boyfriend as you are. It annoys me sometimes, but at least I know how much you can’t stand not being with me. That you’d rather spend a Saturday night listening to my rants or eating every food we can find, cuddle and watch even the lamest movie with me, than to be out with your friends drinking, spicing up the bromance or whatever else guys do together. You always exert an extra effort on reaching out to my family and friends, and I admire you for that. You’re more than willing to know every single person in my life. The fact that you have come to love those people that I love… that makes me fall for you even more.
Maybe it will be an overstatement if I claim that you are probably every girl’s dream guy… but seriously, you being a complete surprise freak who is never ashamed to do acts of sweetness for his girl, who wouldn’t want to be your girlfriend? Be it small or enormous, be it lousy or wondrous… you’re so good at making a girl feel like a pampered princess, my heart melts with absolute happiness all the time. A balloon on a random day. Flowers to win over my forgiveness. A special delivery of whatever food to satisfy my craving. A book I’m dying to read for the past 24 hours. Or a very early morning slash late night visit just because you miss me. These are the things that I will definitely never get tired of. I am probably not the prettiest girl, but with you beside me, it doesn’t really matter. You make me feel lovely inside and out… even beyond that. You’re like my personal Romeo (Romeo and Juliet), Eros (Cupid and Psyche), Landon (A Walk to Remember), Noah (The Notebook), Leo (The Vow), Tan Zhie Jie (To Forget You), Chuck (Gossip Girl), Dor (The Timekeeper)… and all the other fictional male characters that I admire, combined all together. A decent, sensible, romantic guy who isn’t afraid to give all the love he can without even thinking of what he will get in return. It’s just so overwhelming to know that whatever makes me happy, even the most doltish thing, makes you happy. It’s fascinating how you’ve tried your best to learn every single detail about me. Reading me always like I’m your favorite book, studying word for word, re-reading, memorizing and loving every page. You’ve always been my number one fan, my consistent cheerleader, my happy pill, my hero, the constant of my life and all that there is for me to want and need. My favorite company through good times and bad.
I wouldn’t come close to denying that our relationship isn’t perfect… yet that makes this whole thing ideal. I don’t feel the need to impress anyone or worry about how people around us see our relationship and what they think about it. It has always been real… too real if you may ask. Arguing most of the time and infuriated with each other’s annoying little ways, hating each other for the shallowest reason there is. We can be happy doing nothing the whole day. Sitting on our couch, contented on talking to each other about the silliest things in life. Or in some days (if we preferred a quiet afternoon rest): I, too caught up in a book I’m reading… you, wandering in your dreams, sleeping in my lap. This has always been the way our relationship goes. No need for an everyday lunch dates/dinners at fancy restaurants, or expensive gifts that cost almost a month of our allowances combined. We see joy in the simplest thing. An ice cream tub shared, and all the stories we never get tired of telling each other… these are the things that made our relationship special. And it may not be cloud nine most of the time, but I am proud of the fact that we always figure out a way to patch things up and settle all the misunderstandings that we’re going through, ironing all the wrinkles our relationship holds and walking hand in hand through the rough road. What we have may not be perfect… but I know that this is worth having. A relationship that will continue to blossom in the coming years.
I love you, Baby. I may love you a little less sometimes, but I never did once stop loving you. It’s quite proven that a string will always pull me back to you… it’s like a part of me is missing if I don’t have you. I know we can’t still tell if we are each other’s happy ending… but I have faith on us. Every day is a fight for another day we can share, let’s keep on striving for forever. I am looking forward for more long hugs, kissing while laughing, late night phone calls talking about the pandas or the koalas, or even the munchkins of Oz. More good morning and good night messages, thousands of ‘I love yous’ and ‘I love you toos’ that we will never get tired of voicing out. More bookstore-hopping or wandering at thrift shops. Let’s keep dancing on our song, let’s keep singing our hearts out with all the nursery rhymes we know. Let’s stay this way, the happy couple that we have always been. We’ll keep on writing our love story. We’ll keep on being Popeye and Olive, June and Johnny, Mickey and Minnie, Salt and Pepper (It’s so obvious who Pepper is. Haha!), Spongebob and Patrick, Finn and Jake, Pucca and Garu, Pooh and Piglet… FOREVER BEE AND BOO, never one without the other. More than lovers, we are best friends. A private team discovering everything about life together.
Thank you… there will never be enough words to say how blessed I feel right now. I will be forever thankful to God for letting our paths meet. Let’s create more memories. Fingers crossed, we’ll be anchored for the rest of our lives. :)
You’re mad at him for what he has done. That’s just it. You’re going to be mad at him… not just today, but maybe in a week when he forgets to do the dishes. Maybe you’ll be mad at him in a month when he doesn’t put away his laundry. Or better yet, you’re going to be mad at him in an appropriate time frame, such as another thirty years, when he accidentally drops his wedding ring down the drain. My point is you’re going to be mad at him for a bunch of different times in your life. You’re opposite poles, way different from each other. You’re going to clash every now and then, but you both somehow make it work. He drives you nuts, and yet you can’t stand not talking to him. You drive him nuts, but he still comes crawling back to you. YOU TWO ARE BOTH FRUSTRATINGLY PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER.
I guess I have told you so many times about this friendship. So now, let me tell you a story of a different genre. This relationship doesn’t have a history, or a birthday for that matter. IT JUST HAPPENED. Something like a cheap and cheesy, knock-off, tale… like that of the big bang theory. Occurred at the right time, in the right place. Cheesy, I told you so. And as I am running out of words, I can’t help to just think of what life would be like without someone who can play the role of each member of your family, outside your own home. Someone who can tell you who you are and what you are becoming when you’re lost in your own damaged self. The only person who can’t stand getting mad at you, and stays despite all the flaws you have in your entire system. The kind of friend who can forget on the next 3 days, but comes back on the 4th when you’re just falling into pieces. No judgments, no grudge. Since I can’t clearly tell you what this friendship is like, let me just show you. Look at the pictures below, and you be the judge. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TOUGH GUY! :) Sorry if you have to deal with a brat like me on a daily basis. But let’s face it, we both know that you would never like the idea of having someone else as your “BEST FRIEND”… so might as well accept the fact that you’re stuck with me forever. Mehehe! :>
You know how much I love you. Enjoy your day. You deserve to be happy. :-* ♥
Loneliness only wants you back here with me. Common-sense knows that you’re not good enough for me. ♫♪♫♪♫~
With my never ending introduction to almost every post I have done, HI!!! (In any tone you like, by the way.)
I am weird for some reasons, even I can’t figure out why. I’m not supposed to be bothered about this to begin with. Still, I can’t help myself. Here’s the thing… Just tonight, I’ve been listening to Justin Timberlake’s “Never Again” for numerous times already. And yes, you got that right, the title above is found somewhere in the song. Catchy, isn’t it? I’ve known the song for over two years now, but it was just hours ago that every word completely made sense to me. Well, just for the record, James and I are still together. He absolutely has nothing to do with this random issue running in my head at this very moment. It may come out unreasonable to claim that I can feel how painful the song actually is, but I really do. It’s fucking cray-shit, I know… but it seriously hits my entire system, as if I’m going through a world-collapsing break-up right now. So before I go straight to whatever I’m trying to point out, let me give you the chorus of this JT’s song that literally breaks my heart.
“You didn’t say you’re sorry, I don’t understand. You don’t care that you’ve hurt me, And now I’m half the man that I used to be when it was you and me. You didn’t love me enough. My heart may never mend, and you’ll never get to love me again.”
It’s obviously meant for the broken-hearted ones. And absolutely not the kind of song I should be sticking to right now. Yet, I’ve been there. I know exactly how it feels to have your heart torn into pieces. I’ve been taken for granted, cheated on and lied to… not once, nor twice. Pretty much the reason behind my trust issues.
So… Where am I heading to, you ask? I want to shake the heads of those people who deliver shots of pain to every genuinely loving hearts, hoping to wake them up and convince them to change with this message.
TO ALL THE ASSHOLES, JERKS AND BITCHES: They say the worst feeling in the world is being taken for granted by someone you love, and I definitely agree with that. We all get sick and tired of something, don’t we? Just because someone loves you so much, it doesn’t mean that he’s/she’s going to stay forever and endure all the heartaches you’re bringing him/her. What made you think that certain person would always come running after you, huh? Every heart is capable of giving up, letting go and moving on. And maybe when you finally realize that you have to appreciate every single thing he/she did for you out of love, it may be too late to start changing. You might actually lose someone worth keeping.
I’ve been saying this for quite some time now, “Not all hearts do mend”. While most would probably give another chance, unfortunately, some won’t. You can’t expect someone to remain the same after feeding his/her heart with your endless bullshits. One of these days, he/she will get better and will absolutely settle for someone amazing… and you know what? It’s not going to be you. Sure, love is a powerful emotion… but so is hate. Will it make you feel better if you turn someone into a cold-hearted monster, when all he/she did is consistently love you? Don’t wait too long to be the right guy/girl to love. You can always be worthy of someone’s love if you’ll choose to do so. Stop lying and cheating. Stop messing around and breaking hearts. If you won’t, you’re going to regret it someday, somehow… feeling sorry for making a fool out of yourself, letting a wonderful chance at love slip away. It’s all up to you.
I’m tired of blabbing. I think I made myself clear already. Think about this.
You have to grow up before life fades out on you. You need to realize that not everything is beer and skittles, and that you’re not always on cloud 9. There are things you have to work hard for, there are things you have to CONSISTENTLY take extra care of. Last but not the least, people will not wait around, extending their patience on you, until you become mature enough to take the rough road ahead. LIFE IS SHORT… Most things should be taken seriously.
The feeling of having your dad by your side as you struggle through life’s ups and downs… I guess that’s one thing I’ll never be able to experience.
Whenever I see a girl cuddling or fooling around with her dad, I feel envious… and it hurts like hell.
I grew up not having him beside me. I was 8 when my dad went abroad to work, or at least that’s what they say. Yes, we had continuous communication after he left. He would call us, send stuffs whenever he has the chance… he’s still a father to us, but only for two years. I can clearly recall the time when I was expecting a call from him during my 10th Birthday. I waited. Hoped. Wished. And I just ended up holding back my tears, trying to accept the fact that I no longer have a dad. I don’t want to cry but it’s a a crucial feeling. It was my very first heartbreak. What sucks? It’s not knowing the complete cause of this abandonment. I was only 10, and growing up loving your father so much, it was hard for me… it was frustrating. I was a huge fan of my dad. I look up to him then, the reason why everytime they say something against him way back… I’ll always be the first one to hate them. I am aware of what my father did by time I reached 11 or 12. Of course, I was disappointed. All the things I thought he was started to fell apart. Questions began to occur in my mind, a lot of whys and hows. It was like a straight shot of pain that was injected to my heart. I wanted to get mad at him, to hate him. I wanted to curse him… and the dismaying part, no matter how much I wanted to, I CAN’T. He’s still my dad, and he’ll always have a place in my heart.
Sad fact is that I never stopped wishing and hoping that one day, I’ll see him again. Honestly, I badly want to see him. To be able to have that hug I longed for, to hear him call me his ‘baby’ again, to have that father and daughter bond that I last had when I was a little girl. It feels good to have someone to call ‘daddy’, I suppose. I miss him, and I won’t lie about that. I loved my father so much before, and despite what he did, I still love him up to now. I’m a part of him, anyway.
AYOKONG AMININ SA SARILI KO NA TALAGANG WALA NA NGANG PAG-ASA NA MAKITA KO ULIT SI DADDY, KASI HANGGANG NGAYON UMAASA PA DIN AKO. You can’t blame me for still keeping my hopes up, right? I only have one dad in this world, and I can’t possibly hate him. If it’s not because him, I wouldn’t be here by now.
SO EVERY GIRL OUT THERE WHO HAVE THEIR DADS WITH THEM, LOVE THEM AS MUCH AS YOU COULD AND BE THANKFUL FOR SUCH AMAZING FATHERS. AND TO THOSE WHO HAS THE SAME THING IN LIFE AS I DO, DON’T HATE. LOVE THEM EVEN MORE, THEY ARE THE REASON OF YOUR EXISTENCE… NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO, HE’S STILL YOUR FATHER.
LORD, sana one day, makita ko na ulit si daddy. I remember my 18th Birthday, that day I was wishing for a miracle to happen, I was hoping that in any kind of way daddy will show up. MASAKIT, kasi kahit minsan di mo hinahanap o ayaw mong alalahanin… may mga certain points that you would wish he’s there with you.
It is very common for girls growing up to have self-esteem problem. I did once and I still do suffer from it every once in a while. I guess my own solution to that inevitable situation is to accept the fact that people will always have a bad thing to say about everyone. Each is entitled to be a critic, anyway. It’s true that you can never please everybody no matter how hard you try to do so.
To those girls who are suffering the same dilemma, keep in mind that you always have to be the person that you are. Some people may hate you for the things you do, but at the end of the day, your happiness is the only thing that matters. Every girl is beautiful in their own way. Yes, life is not fair… but, we all have our little talents and we should stuck in our heads that we are special for the things we do. No one else will appreciate you if you don’t appreciate yourself to start with. Dispose all those criticisms and take all those compliments. Never compare yourself to anyone, learn to build up your own identity. Don’t let your insecurities take over your whole life and pull you down. Be with the people who make you a completely better person, they are those who love you despite your flaws. Always believe in yourself and the things that you are capable of doing. Heads up, ladies… remember that you are wonderfully made by God. :)
I would say that every break up sucks. Yes, it does and there’s nothing you can really do about it. In fact, my last break up nearly drove me crazy. I think it’s supposed to be that way when you love so much. Funny, but with that hardship, you’ll learn a lot. I’ve learned to view things in a completely different way and it definitely made me stronger and wiser in handling relationships. At first, it feels as if your whole world is collapsing and that you’ll never be able to get over the heartache. But hey, everything will get better… I swear. :) Need a proof? I’m in love and very happy now… the happiest I’ve ever been, actually. ♥
I started with nothing. I’m still going on with nothing. I can’t think of anything to sum up all these feelings in my body. Yet, with every emotion, I still feel like… nothing.
I wonder how people with the same 24 hours a day, the same currency and economy as mine can make the most of what is given to them. I wonder how one person can be so interesting, smart, rich and good-looking all at the same time. I wonder if love can really last forever. I wonder if those people, whom I have hurt and lied to, forgave me already. I wonder if my mom misses my dad and cries at night or if she hates him for what he did. I wonder what tomorrow would bring. I wonder if there would still be any of us left to stay in heaven someday. I want to be worth something. I want to learn. I want to know. I want answers.
I wanted to tell you clearly what I really think, but I am as well is muddled with my own thoughts. I’m kind of starting to be annoying for blabbing about nonsense stuffs, I know… Well, I did tell you it was nothing.
Hi there! :> Yes, I haven’t abandoned my blog yet… just became very lazy to make an entry. :bd
SHOUT-OUT TO EVERYONE:
So it’s the first day of 2012. What do I say? :) Well… 2011 was a fun year, it was okay and I was contented on how it actually turned out. I met new found friends along the way. Unfortunately, I lost old ones. I also learned the value of family and as usual, had a colorful lovelife that certainly blossomed each and every day of the past year. Sticks, stones and cement were thrown at me by different people… but despite the bad experiences, I am very much thankful for all the blessings that I received. Thank you, God. :) I wanted to put here a couple of New Year’s resolution that had been on my list for years and years now. See the irony in there? It was never really new. I just want to gratify myself that every year, I can change. Do I? Hmm. You be the judge. Change. Change. Change. Everyone wants to change but no one dares to change. Redundant, isn’t it? Since we all want to be something worth a little more than what we are now, how about let’s all try to do something that can be possibly done every waking day of our lives. Like pray and eat a healthy diet, I suppose. Now that’s worth the resolution. :)
Enough said, go forth and make a brand new better you this year. ;) Have a happy, meaningful and extremely wonderful 2012. ♥
I was really down the past days and those people who are close to me and my family sure do know the reason why. I can’t fake a good and real smile, seriously. Things were very chaotic and I actually ran out of reasons to look forward on Christmas day. But I’ll admit, I got things all wrong. I shouldn’t be pondering on how unfortunate my life turned out because at the end of too much thinking, all I’ll be left with is a never ending sadness. Sucks. So instead of being my own bitch and continuously putting myself down, I did this. :)
BLESSINGS TO BE GRATEFUL ABOUT:
My Family: I am blessed with such a wonderful family, I know that. No matter what happens, I can count on them… be it good or bad. They are my priceless treasures. Before all those acquaintances, bestfriends and boyfriends, they’ve been with me first. I may not have the perfect family, but I’m pretty sure I have a great one. And I will continue loving them for the rest of my life.
My Mom: Yes, she’s part of my family, but I just really want to stress how important she is to me. She’ll always be the most special and most precious above anything and anyone else. I seldom get the time to thank her so I might as well tell her how grateful I am to be hers whenever I have the chance to do so, and now is one of those. Well, what can I say? She truly is the best mom and dad combined, for providing our needs and a lot way more of our wants. Shout-out to Mommy: Thank you so much and I love you, always. :) I know she was strict on me way back then because she cares. Sometimes, I miss the point… but I certainly do not miss the fact that she loves me so much and she’s making such decisions for she doesn’t want me to be in any kind of harm. We may not agree on everything all the time but I will never choose any mom over her in any day of the year. Everyone knows how hard she works for us. I will forever be proud of how good she is in doing everything she does… being a mother, father, warrior, friend and teacher of three. :’)
My Friends: They say friends come and go but for the precious few, you should hold on. Friendship is a really huge deal for me. I will admit that I only have few friends now, not unlike when I was younger. But this made me conclude that I had pretty much held on to the right and the precious. I am really lucky to still have these certain people in my life. They contribute a lot in making me smile and laugh everyday. Awesomes, you know who you are. ;)
Chickas, My Forever Girlfriends: (Claire, Rica, Mica, Jhepoi & Gela) These gorgeous people have shown me that being a family don’t need to have the same blood type, nor hold the same last names and middle names. I’ve been very thankful from the day I had them up until now, for despite the distance and their busy schedules they never did once made me feel that I am forgotten and they even make time for me. They are my sisters from other mothers, as I often say. And I cannot thank them enough for raising me up and for always making me feel better with myself… they are indeed amazing.
My Baby Boy: (James) The person who made a huge difference in my life. I’m pretty sure I don’t have to remind him of how happy I am when I’m with him, do I? Each and every person who knows us personally can tell that I am head over heels in love with this boy. He has changed me into someone better, my mom definitely would like to thank him for that. Rainbows and butterflies, that’s what I get whenever he’s around, need I say more? I love him, it’s a cliché… but as much as he never got tired on loving me, I will never stop loving him as well. I know this may come out doltish but I couldn’t imagine myself being with a guy other than James. If God will allow, which I am very much hopeful about, I really want him to be my last. *CROSS-FINGERS* ♥
One thing I realize on the process of making this is that I shouldn’t count my misfortunes, rather I should spend my time extending my love to these people and just be happy. I’m lucky enough to have them and the only thing that I am ought to do is to appreciate these wonderful gifts life has served me. :)
I really planned to give you a memorable birthday today, if only you were here. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to do so and I’m sorry about that. I will admit that ever since then, I haven’t given you anything special at all… so let me make it up to you by telling you how much you mean to me, with all my heart. :”>
Everyone in the world might say that their mom is the greatest, but knowing that you’re just there, continuously guiding, loving and protecting me and my siblings, is enough reason to proclaim that you are the best there is. I know that it was never easy for you to support us and provide all our needs, given the fact that you’re a single parent, and I’m very grateful about that. I am lost for words on how beautiful of a person you are, inside and out. You’ve been a good sister to all your siblings, a great daughter to Tatay and Nanay and an amazing mom to your three children. I look up to your kindness and I admire your heart, the way it gives out love unconditionally. I feel so blessed for having you as my mom, the pleasure and the privilege is mine. I am very proud to be yours.
Right at this moment, I am having a really bad headache due to remembering all the wrongs that I caused you. I know that I’ve brought you countless disappointments. I’ve been very stubborn and made poor judgements on you as a parent. I’ve been such a heartless and horrible daughter, and I regret all of those things that I did which actually tore your heart apart. Sorry… I’m really, really sorry for everything, for all the pain that I brought you, for being so insensitive and very unreasonable before. I’m sorry for not realizing sooner that I cannot have anyone as priceless as you are. I’m sorry for taking you for granted most of the time, and I really wish I can give back everything you’ve done for me. Forgive me for those times that I forgot to make you feel special and loved… because honestly, you deserve to be reminded that you’re the most wonderful gift God has bestowed us.
Thank you so much, Mommy… Seriously, if you can have a better life than this, I’m willing to give mine back. That’s how much I love you. I want you to be happy, the happiest among all if possible. I miss you so much and I guess I’ll be missing you a little bit longer. I love you so much, forever. :’)
I don’t know how to further tell the story of how this day went because I don’t really want to spill all of my emotions right now, considering that my feelings are immensely mixed up. I know that some things are better left unsaid so I’ll stick by the thought that maybe, in the long run or in a much better timing, I can finally let all of these out. Why not now if you may ask? Well, I’m so exhausted due to all the drama that occurred for the past 48 hours. I don’t want to hurt feelings anymore, nor to raise my voice and point out what I’m mad about… I want to stop crying and ranting about this issue. I’ve been practicing to control my temper. And I might as well stay away from the problem and figure myself out, quietly, in a corner where I can sit all alone and think.
Good morning! :) Instead of having breakfast after I got up from bed, here I am in front of my laptop and blogging my heart away. Hihi. :”>
This is weird for me, I was never a morning blogger. Honestly, I have this habit of staying up late composing entries. I don’t know why, but I get to express my thoughts better at night. I’m an owl kasi. O_O Mehehe. :bd Kidding aside… seriously, my brain doesn’t function well in the morning. It’s not in good terms with Mr. Sun at all. *SIGH*
Anyway, what pushed my guts to do this is a comment I got from my friend in one of my notes in Facebook. Here it is…
I already gave an answer to her question, as you can see. But then, I want to elaborate things further and I’ll admit that my interest was aroused by this question. Plus, she deserves a better answer than the latter, don’t you think? I was still a bit sleepy pa kasi during that time, sorry. Haha! :))
Let me start by giving you this simple thought… None of us have the capability of giving out same amount of love for two or more different people. Not unless if you’re a parent, of course. That’s a whole different thing. So to make things crystal clear, I would say that no matter how many of them that you love, there will always be that one person whom you shower with greater love than the others. Yet, our common mistake is that there are so many kinds of love and sometimes people assume that how they feel are all the same kind. Actually, in my 19 years of existence, I have seen and experienced most of them… and they are sort of confusing, really. There’s this friendship-kind-of-love and so is family-kind-of-love, and then we have puppy-love, first-love, great-love, and so on… but the thing here is that you should be certain of what you really feel, because it would definitely be hard on your part if you’ll have things all wrong and you’ll never be able to be happy at all.
I would like to give out a general advice for everyone who is in the same situation with Steph… Think about everything. Think who weighs more on your heart. Think about this alone, not just once but as many times as you can… until you’re sure of how you feel, until all the questions in your head are gone. Don’t ask for anyone else’s point of view on who’s better or who suits you best because you’re the only one who’ll be able to answer that question. Consider both your heart and your mind, just like teamwork. Trust me, if they both agree with the same person, the one that they’ll choose is probably the person that deserves you the most. Keep in mind that the only kind of love you should be running after is real love, the kind of love that will make everything in you and around you way better. There will never be accurate words to define how this feels, but once you have it, you’ll know for yourself that it is the perfect kind of love you’re looking for. And most importantly, don’t rush things out… because the perfect love story often takes the longest time to be written. ;)
So there you have it, I hope everything I said above can help. If you need any advice, feel free to approach me. I’m more than willing to help. :) Have a great day everyone. God bless!
PS. Today is my kuya’s 21st birthday. Do me a favor, greet him if you know him personally. Thank you! >:)<
Would you really choose someone who makes everything harder and more challenging than the one that serves everything in front of you? I don’t really know where I am heading right now, but I got curious of relationships and how it works… how the heart works for that matter.
Personally, I would say that some people tend to go after someone who gives them a hard time… simply because we all have this ironic and stupid way of wanting something we can’t have at all, but still continues to push further just to have a hold on that thing. Yet on the other hand, I consider it wrong and very pointless. It’s actually one way of being a masochist. If you opted to go for someone who doesn’t even bother to love you back, obviously you’re placing yourself in a chain that never ends. And also, you’d never be able to settle for good because feelings will never be mutual.
Now, think about it. Why would you let yourself suffer and your heart be torn into pieces when you can have something exceeding your expectations, right? Maybe things will be a lot better if you’ll just wait for the right person who will not let you feel what you don’t deserve to feel. Keep in mind as well that relationships are always a two-way thing, which means both sides should give… with equal amount of honesty and fidelity. Learn to love yourself. Go for what you want and what will make you happy, genuinely happy. Not happiness that you can just get from someone inconsistent. No one deserves that. Ever. Wait for that person who will let you feel the love that you ought to have. It may approach sooner or it might take longer, time won’t really matter… for as they always say, “Good things come to those who wait.”
It took long before Prince Charming found Cinderella, but if she can wait for true love, then so can you. You deserve an amazing fairy tale, so don’t let yourself miss it by going after the wrong one.
Every girl has her bestfriend, boyfriend and true love, but you’re really lucky if they’re all the same person. ♥
I couldn’t be more thankful… as I always say and so is the cliché line goes, he’s the best I ever had. What more can I ask for when he has given me all the love and attention a girl would really want to have, right? :) He’s the only person who never got tired on trying to understand my melodramatic rantings and random weirdness. I love the way he would kiss my forehead as part of his apology whenever he did something wrong that really annoyed me. As well as, when he whispers "I love you" and give me a very tight hug, one that makes me gasps for air afterwards. He’s the type of guy that’s very expressive, I think so. He would always tell me how much I mean to him and that he couldn’t afford to lose me and so on… I always get kilig-vibes whenever he does that. *BLUSHES* I would never deny the fact that he makes me feel as if I won a massive lottery for having him as my man. With him, I’m comfortable of being myself. I don’t feel the need to impress him or whatsoever because he’ll always point out that I am wanted and cared for. I feel extra special whenever he’s around, kind of like the-pampered-princess-feeling. :”>
People may find me corny with all the cheeseballs I will let out, but seriously… when you’re truly in love, as much as possible you would want to spend every second of your life with that special someone simply because it’s way better when he/she is around. ♥
For tonight, I don’t really intend to be all goosebumps-y and cheesy, but I really want to make him smile… as well as to remind myself how lucky I am to still have him around. :”>
Here’s one for the most special guy in my life. ♥
HI, AWESOME! ♥
I just want to let you know how grateful I am of everyday with you. I’m very proud, contented and happy for how long this relationship has brought us. Two years had gone and we’re still together, through good times and bad. I know how much effort you exerted to make this thing work up until now, and I cannot thank you enough for making me feel loved each and every day. :’)
You’re one of those wonderful blessings God has given me. Clearly, you have made me into whatever I am right now. Someone people around me are probably proud of. I never thought that I would get to experience such an amazing love story. EPIC, as how I would say it. You have all my praises, you never fail into being a bestfriend and boyfriend at the same time. Really, you’re a master in playing both roles. And if forever does exist, I wouldn’t let the chance of spending it with you go by. Right now, I just don’t want to lose my touch on you and I don’t want to be someone inconsistent. You deserve all in the world, after all. I don’t think I still have to remind you of this, but I’ll just say it to cut the crap anyway. I love you, Baby… The only regret I have is not getting to meet and know you way back earlier. If I only knew then that there is someone out there who will love me unconditionally despite all my flaws, I should have spent my time looking for you instead of wasting most of it.
For making it into my life and for giving me love much more than what I deserve… THANK YOU. I’m so dazed of how much I can enjoy little things with you and I will never doubt the fact that I can always be happy when you’re around. Your company is the best gift I can ever ask for, for now and for until-you-know-when and god-knows-what.
I love you so much, goof. With my outmost sincerity. Always. :-* Thank you for bringing absolute happiness in my life. :’)